3G - Day 21

Weight: 198.6# (total loss of 3 pounds)

Waist: 107.0 cm (total loss of 3 cm)

Been busy running about here and there, back and forth. Spent 2 days and 2 nights in France, specifically Paris and a place outside Paris near Disneyland. Then in Germany for two nights, packed and ready to leave again. London, England this time. 5 days, 4 nights.

I walked a lot, took nearly a thousand pictures, and ate from restaurants and food joints.

Day 8 was the last time I did a weigh in and check in. Tomorrow is when I should do the next one, but it will be far too busy then, so I bumped it up a day. Compared to then, I'm down a half centimeter in width (and fitting into my size 38 pants), and I'm down 0.6 pounds. Not a great loss overall, but nearly 2 weeks without any form of workout, and still making a minor loss, that's great.

I'm back on track now. The flight tomorrow will set me off kilter for a while, but I'll be back on again before too much time has elapsed. And I am going to be working my ass off (literally).

Watching Biggest Loser Australia has really put me in an inspired state. Seeing what some of the contestants can do really does inspire. Yes, they have a massive support network. Time for them to do nothing but exercise and eat properly. But, don't I have all that as well? Especially now, when I'm unemployed, yet fiscally sound enough? I think so. I can make the change I want to. I am empowered to do so by the force that is me.

3G - Day 10

Weight: 200.4#

Weight stable, Which is actually good since I ended up eating badly again today. Was tired, so I went to be before doing anything physical.

Helping:

Biggest Loser

Not Helping:

Chocolate

Feelings:

Rapid alternation through depressed, annoyed, excited, frustrated and discouraged. Also, I need to really work out what "Not Fucking Around" means, otherwise it's just words.

3G - Day 9

Weight: 200.4#

Up again. Feeling bad about it. Ate too much again today. Lotta roast chicken. Way more than needed. Plus fries. Why do this to myself?

Stop. Fucking. Around.

Helping:

Miss M kicking my ass

Biggest Loser inspiration

Not Helping:

Bad food choices

Eating said bad food

Feeling:

Frustration, depression, disappointment. Gaining sucks. Being in the 200+ again sucks. If it sucks so much, why do I make the decisions? Trade what I want for what I want right now. No. Bad me.

3G - Day 8

Weight: 199.2# (change of -2.6# over last week; total of -2.6#)

Gut: 107.5cm (change of -2.5cm over last week; total of -2.5cm)

A bit disappointed that I didn't go down in weight on weigh-in day. Up by 0.2# (again). There seems to be a pattern developing of going up by 0.2, and then down by 1. Which comes up as a 0.8# loss over two days. 0.4 per day average is good, but I'm striving for 0.52 per day. To get there, I have to start putting out more effort. Both physically, and in diet.

Helping:

The run

Workout

Not Helping:

Streusel

40g bag of pretzel sticks

Mini chocolate bars

Feelings:

I said I'd be happy with any loss 2# and over per week. And I am happy, but I'm still a bit annoyed that I didn't make the 3.6# loss I'd been hoping to achieve. I'm a bit surprised that the gut shrank 2.5cm. That's a full inch down in a week. I'm down to 42 inches around, which isn't great, but is at least a number I've been at before. I'd like to get down to 36 around, as that's a size I think I can deal with. 6 inches in 5 weeks? Given this week's results, it's possible.

I do have to cop to a bit of discouragement this week. Got a comment from a friend which said "don't worry so much about the weight." I know they really meant that I should focus on just eating right and exercise, and the weight will take care of itself - but it was still a bit discouraging to hear. Keeping my weight in mind reminds me and keeps me focused.

On the uplifting side, I got some motivation from Biggest Loser Australia. The question "Have you done everything you could do?" was asked. And I have to look at myself and ask that same question. Have I done everything I could do? Or am I giving less than I should.

I earn my body.

3G - Day 7

Weight: 199.0#

Was happy to see my numbers down from yesterday, but a bit disappointed they weren't down more. I know running burns less than biking, and I didn't do much else to boost up the total burn.

Still, I'm heading downward, which is a good direction. Hoping for a loss again tomorrow, but I'm taking a break from the biking and running to give the legs a recovery day. No other exercise happening either.

Weighing in, photos and measurements tomorrow morning.

Helping:

Did not go get a pastry.

Not Helping:

The last of the bread pudding.

Feeling:

Frustration. In general, but at least in part with not keeping up with my high-end loss rate. Happy, that things are moving downward.

3G - Day 6

Weight: 199.8#

Surprised to find my weight managed a 0.2# gain. How is this possible? I don't know. I checked it after the official numbers, and was much happier with the number I got then, but I record my weight just once per day. Whatever comes up is the number. Hoping for a nicer number tomorrow.

New photos in 2 days. New gut measures then too.

Helping:

Ran again.

Did not go get a pastry after game.

Not Helping:

That damn cake.

Seeing the scale go up instead of down, even if I know the numbers day to day aren't the essential bit.

3g - Day 5

Weight: 199.6#

Gut: 108.5cm

It's the midpoint gut measure. Weekly measures on Wednesday, but Sunday feels like a good day to take stock.

According to calculations, I'm right on track for the weight. Yay me. Now to keep it going.

There's still a bit of time today, debating a walk or run, though neither of them feel like a great idea. Was walking earlier today, and my knees are a bit bothered. I'll probably do some arm work instead.

Helping:

29km bike ride today, even a slight hill.

Not Helping:

Cake. Still too much of it about, plus there's bread pudding now.

Feelings:

Happy to be on track. Frustrated at the continued presence of baked goods. Trying to make sure I eat enough, but not too much of anything. Hunger hasn't been a problem, but I've been wanting something creamy all day.